This post is going to be a lot different than others. I may not even publish this. I am literally just typing out what I feel and what comes to my mind. Where as, I usually put a lot of thought into my posts and try to keep them more positive, while still keeping it real. This is going to be more like an unfiltered, raw, journal entry. Something I wouldn’t normally share with anyone else. However, my heart has been so so heavy recently and I need to just get it out. So this is for anyone out there who may be feeling the same way that I have been.
Over the last few days my heart has felt so so heavy. I try to live under my rock and not pay attention to all of the negativity in the world (whether this is the wisest thing or not I don’t know but it’s just what my natural bent is). But with the news of the new abortion law being passed in New York, even my Instagram feed has become a place of heated arguments, unkind comments and disrespectful disagreement. I’m all for people using their platforms to share their opinions- that is not what bothers me so much. It is more other people’s cruel and negative comments and responses. I try not to look in the comments of famous people or just anyone with a large following on Instagram because it shocks and devastates me to see the hateful comments that people so boldly put out there while hiding behind their screens. And seeing the heated, unkind debated going on about the new abortion law in NY was just kind of a last straw for me. I don’t want to doubt the humanity and kindness in the world. But when I see such negativity and hate swirling around on social media- especially when such emotional and passion-provoking topics, like abortion, are being discussed- I do begin to doubt it. I begin to be overwhelmed by questions about the reality of the world we live in.
How can we live in a world where people hide behind screens and attack other human beings?
How can we live in a world where the value of a human life is becoming less and less valuable?
How can we live in a world where racism and bigotry still run rampant?
How can we live in a world where people are in such a hurry that they don’t even stop to let a mom with her 3 kids cross the street?
Where you can get flipped off for trying to get over into another lane?
Where lines are becoming so blurred on what is moral and what isn’t?
How can we live in a world where people actually think it’s okay to kill a baby just because it hasn’t left the womb yet?
It scares me.
It scares me to think that my children could grow up in a world where people don’t care about each other. Where strangers don’t smile at each other anymore and where people think it’s okay to judge and tear someone apart online, someone they’ve never even met.
I know this is pretty depressing. But this is just how overwhelmed I’ve been feeling. I know that in almost every generation prior to ours, people have thought the same thoughts- that the world is just getting worse and worse. I don’t want to think those thoughts. But in times like these, I find myself going there.
I find myself feeling hopeless.
But then God.
But then God reminds me of his promises. The Holy Spirit whispers to my heart and speaks into all of these lies that I find myself believing.
“But our citizenship is in heaven. And we eagerly await a Savior from there, the Lord Jesus Christ,” Philippians 3:20
“For this light momentary affliction is preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison, as we look not to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen.” 2 Corinthians 4:17-18
“The sufferings of this present time are not worth comparing with the glory that is to be revealed to us.’” Romans 8:18
“We know that the whole creation has been groaning as in the pains of childbirth right up to the present time. Not only so, but we ourselves, who have the first fruits of the Spirit, groan inwardly as we wait eagerly for our adoption to sonship, the redemption of our bodies. For in this hope we were saved. But hope that is seen is no hope at all. Who hopes for what they already have? But if we hope for what we do not yet have, we wait for it patiently.” Romans 8: 22-25
“And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.” Romans 8:28
“But this I call to mind, and therefore I have hope: The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases; his mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning; great is your faithfulness.” Lamentations 3:21-23
“He will wipe away every tear from their eyes, and death shall be no more, neither shall there be mourning, nor crying, nor pain anymore, for the former things have passed away.” Revelation 21:4
“Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life? And why are you anxious about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin, yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is alive and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? Therefore do not be anxious, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ For the Gentiles seek after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them all. But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you. Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.”Matthew 6:25-34
These truths from the word of God quiet my worries and doubts.
God’s promises bring peace to my restless soul and give me hope for our world and for the future. I hope that they can bring you peace as well.
I want my social platform to be a space of positivity. A place where people can come to know that it’s okay to not be okay and that there is a God out there who knows, loves and accepts you. I want to create a space of escape from all of the hate and negativity out there. To remind people that there are STILL PEOPLE WHO LOVE AND WHO CARE. I believe, despite what the news continues to propagate, that there is more good in the world than bad. And that is what I hope to remind you of as well.
For my own heart, I just need to take a break from social media. It could be for a week or it could be more. I promise I’ll be back, but I just need to take a break from it all and recenter myself on the one place I find my hope and my home- seeking after the kingdom of Jesus.
“Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sins.” 1 Peter 4:8